Monday, August 15, 2005

As I stated in my previous post, I went away this past weekend with Gary & Hannah to finish a job up by Moosehead. As luck would have it (another post for another day on the luck we always have), the person never showed and NEVER CALLED. We left the person 2 phone messages last week asking them to please call if their plans changed because it's a 4 hour drive one way to get there. *@#&*^@ guy didn't call. Oh well, it turns out he didn't go because he thought the weather might be bad and he was so sorry that he forgot to call and blah, blah, blah. It's hard to be so friggin' responsible in life when others just poo poo their way through their own....never wondering how their own irresponsibility might effect others.

Spending ALL those LONG HOURS in the car with my husband has taught me something new about him. When he talks on his cell phone, he drives faster. He didn't believe me when I told him. Honest to God, I couldn't stand it when he was just tooling along, yakking his head off, going at least Mach4 while I hung on for dear life. He seemed to be driving just fine albeit too fast. Where are those troopers when you want one?

When I worked at the cable office, my boss used to always leave early on Fridays and get a head start on his weekend. As I sat there at my desk, typing away on my keyboard, I'd longingly look out the window and watch him and his family drive away. "I can't wait for the day I can do that. Just up and leave whenever I want. Must be nice." I'd think to myself. Well, this past Friday, we up and left early, leaving Chris working and you know what? I almost wept from feeling so guilty. What is wrong with me? Here I am in a position to leave early on a Friday with my family and I'm feeling guilty and almost like I'm doing something wrong. I said to Gary, "Hon, do you feel bad leaving early on a Friday, with your helper still working and you're not?" He looked over at me like I was sprouting corn out the side of my head. "Are you nuts? Of course I don't feel bad. I've worked my ass off for years just waiting for the time when I can be my own boss and I can do this. Nope, notta, not a chance do I feel bad." And I truly think he didn't. I pondered over why I felt this way and he said he didn't. What do you think?

8 comments:

Julie said...

It's us responsible people that are the only ones that ever feel guilty. My hubby and I are the same way. He works in a mill and he leaves almost two hours early just in case he has car trouble or something like that. He could be in the bathroom and still cut that short just to get to the damned mill on time. I do volunteer work at the school and if I'm late I feel terrible about it and when I chaperone I always feel quilty if I'm the first one to leave. You should feel good about being so responsible. On the flip side of it, Gary is right! He is his own boss and became that so he can leave work whenever he wants. Sets his own hours, accepts only the jobs he really wants to do...he doesn't HAVE to accept any of them. That carefree spirit is a great thing and neither of you should feel guilty. I do understand how you feel though...It's hard to break out of the habit of being a responsible person. Try to get over it Sheri. Live life a little. And don't feel so guilty all the time. Those people that you feel bad about, they are all looking at you saying "SUCKER!" every time you do the responsible thing.

Melody said...

Can't believe that you came all the way up here for nothing...well you did get to visit with me...lucky you. Guess that person you were supposed to work for hasn't changed at all....imagine that. Enjoy the little freedom you have. Lloyd worked 7 days a week for years he's finally gotten to the point that he can take an afternoon off and not feel bad about it...can't wait til I finally get to that point.

Sandi said...

Well, I can gaurantee that if I ever get to that point I will not feel guilty! Like Gary said, he worked long and hard to be able to do that, enjoy it. His helper would.

Sandi said...

Sheri, I love your new button!!
You are a peach!!

Lu said...

i bet it is just the way you are...you are probably way to nice to everybody...hehe....

we need more people like you!

Beth said...

Maybe it's being in touch with your feelings. You remember what it was like to be left behind. Maybe your husband just doesn't. My husband doesn't really get touchy feely. I bet yours is the same way!

Kim said...

I'm with gary, when you work that hard, you earn the time.

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