oh yes - I'm grouchy and I don't know why. Maybe it's the weather? It feels like I have a tiny, little shred of one nerve left and even that's going to snap soon. I'm even having a hard time thinking of something to write about here. I was going to write about Hannah and how much she dislikes anything with a seam, buttons, tags or zippers but I'll leave that for another day. All I can think of right now is this big storm we are supposed to be getting and how much I hate to lose power if we do. Gary thought he should go fill up the gas container for the generator....just in case. I hate to lose power..no I really hate to lose power. It freaks me out. We have no water if we do, therefore can't flush the toilets. I wonder where this fear comes from? I know bathroom issues are a big part of my anxiety and I've pretty much got that under control now. However, when I think about the power going out I can feel the panic begin
Hannah went to a birthday party today and they had a magician for entertainment. There were 40 kids there and she had a great time. However, she did ask me if I could show her how to pop a balloon and turn it into a live rabbit. Sure, Hannah....I can do that Not only can I turn a can of tuna into a gourmet meal, weave my own silk for underwear, and make scary bedroom monsters disappear....I can turn air into live rabbits!
On the weightloss front, I'm doing ok I guess. I really haven't lost but on the flip side, I'm not gaining right now either. That in itself is a friggin' miracle. In the past 2 years I have gained almost 80 lbs. There I've said it. It's out in the open for the whole internet to see. I've got to be held accountable for this even if my meds and thyroid have contributed to it. Maybe that's why I'm grouchy...I'm bloated and I'm allowing myself to get mad about it.